Thursday, August 17, 2017

Updates: I need a vacation and my hopes and dreams laid out for anyone who cares to read them

I really don't know if I'm coming or going of late.  I haven't had a period in 3 months but no, I'm not pregnant. I'm just old.

I've lost 14 pounds and am on a stall, probably because my hormones are all kinds of frigged up hence no period and lots of bloat. Sigh.

I've decided to re-engage and embrace my empath self, that part of me that threatens to swallow me whole when other people's emotions are running wild which is why I stay out of the public as much as possible. That and I can't stand the sound of whistling.  It makes me want to throat punch someone.

I've decided to start back to making soaps and sewing and crafting my heart out because I'm tired of keeping all that creativity in me.  I can sleep and breathe better since I went back to who I am, now if I could just make a living at it things would be all kinds of rosy.

I would really love to open a coffee/gift shop full of antiques and shabby chic hand made items and musty dusty old books, but that takes money which is something I don't have.

I'd love to teach arts and crafts to middle schoolers who don't have anything to do in the afternoons or on weekends, again, the money thing. You know, there are all kinds of after school program for kids in pre-k through 6th grade, then nothing...no wonder we have such a time with kids between the ages of 13 and 18.  If they don't play a sport then they're kind of screwed.

I want chickens and goats and pigs and cattle for my farm, but then again there are coyotes, and lack of funding...

I have 3 experimental raised beds, none of them are doing very well EXCEPT the birdhouse gourds. I have them everywhere but  I can't eat those.

I'm all kinds of tired and restless.

My online job is playing out.  I dont' want to go back to work in the real world. I'm too old for the nonsense that goes on there. LOL! Bet you never thought you'd hear me say that, huh?

My oldest son graduated from tech college today.  My younger was accepted into the tech college but is on a 2 year waiting list. Seems to me it's time to build a larger campus or another campus, this isn't fair to kids who don't want to go to a traditional college but can't get in to get the skills needed to get a good job.  Sure, they could go on to the 2 year college but they end up in debt.  At least the tech school they can get in and get out without using up pell grants, scholarships, and taking out student loans.

I think I just need a warm tropical vacation.

Where's hotels.com and Carnival Cruise Line when I need them?  Well, except I am pretty much unemployed, but hey, I can dream right?

Monday, January 30, 2017

To state the obvious And the things that stall weight loss

I've been away for a while, mostly on facebook because,well, it's an addiction.  I feel important in my little corner of the Facebook world.  I know about soap making, so I hang around the soap making pages offering help/advice to newbies.  I hang around low carb pages too, sort of feeling like a stranger in this 'new age' low carb world.

I've had militant, and I mean MILITANT women tell me I have no idea what I'm talking about, of course they can have bread, sugar, and fruits, and veggies, not eat fats and keep their carb count around 100-200 a day and still lose weight.  A week later they're whining that they've not lost gained on this diet, it's a gimmick, it's too much trouble, because O.M.G!  They GAINED weight.

While their less militant friends pet and console them, I'm in my little corner, because that's where I let them shove me off to...muttering to myself I told you so....

Their biggest downfall is thinking they can game the system.  That works out well doesn't it?  Let's start with gaming the system.

 Bread..sure you can have it.  They all try the cloud bread which is just cream cheese, eggs, cream of tartar and they promptly hate it, it tastes, get this...too eggy..  Same for cauliflower bread.  Personally, I like it but rarely make it because I'm simply not a bread kind of girl.  So they all end up with the low carb breads made with wheat (stall number one) and pure cane juice...venture a guess what cane juice is?  Certainly isn't rocket science and it's stall number 2.

What I don't get is this OMG I MUST HAVE BREAD!!! Mentality.  I know why folks ate it back in the day, it was cheap. It was filling, and relatively easy to make.  It also didn't have all the garbage ingredients in it that store purchased bread does have these days, like pure cane juice...also known as sugar.  And there it is.  My answer.

Sugar addiction.

Hi. my name is Melissa and I'm a sugar addict.

It's like a heroin addiction, damn near impossible to kick.  It's the one thing I see repeatedly.  The desire to lose weight, but not give up anything to do it and it's all just an addiction. It's the one thing I struggle with and these days my body has a lot to say about my addiction.

Every time I eat a carb laden treat, I end up with a yeast infection that has been known to spread along my inner thighs and under that lovely mother's apron that won't go away as long as I keep shoveling carrot cake and brownies in my face.  Better yet I break out head to toe in psoriasis every time I pop a luscious brownie in my mouth, because gluten is a psoriasis trigger, guess what else feeds the psoriasis outbreak, candida.  What feeds the candida? Sugar, wheat, starch.

Candida also causes bloat and swelling and stubborn weight gain.  I now have eczema on my feet, guess what causes that (besides stress), candida, fueled by gluten, fueled by wheat and sugar.  So I'm trapped in a vicious circle.

I'm itching just talking about it.

There's only 1 way out and I'm working on it, again.

Dear Lord, I'm back to 240 pounds, only 40 more and I'll be back where I started 6 years ago, only older.

Confession is good for the soul.  I confess I've been a horrible blogger. I've been a horrible dieter. And it really is time to get over myself and get healthy again.  I'll confess, the only thing even remotely motivating me is that I don't want to buy any more bigger sized clothing when I have a huge wardrobe of cute things hanging in my closet. The other thing motivating me is the infernal itching from hell!  I had to cut my nails off because I itch so badly some days that I have actually drawn blood.  I liked my longer nails.

I confess that I saw a picture of me from a Christmas party and thought OMG am I really that fat again!




I am the woman in the black and white blouse standing behind another woman in a red jacket in the Christmas picture.  I am in the peach striped tee shirt in the picture under it. I've actually put on another 20 lbs since the striped tee shirt pic was taken.

I am singularly embarrassed by both pictures.  This is not where I thought I would be by now.

SMH.

And now I get to start over....

Thursday, February 11, 2016

The Three Best Workouts Out There

Keep in mind, I'm old school and I'm just plain old too...

Tiffany Rothe workouts,,,,short 10-15 minute workouts that leave you thinking "Is that it?  I wanna do it again!"  Find her on youtube

Suzanne Deason Pilates for Weight Loss, simple routine that is shown from 3 different stages in your pilates ability beginner intermediate and advanced

Suzanne Deason Stability/balance  Ball for beginners

And there you have it, give it a try.

Sunday, March 2, 2014

Gotta get my grove back

Are you ready?

Let's do this then!


I am 5ft 7.  At present I am weighing in at 211 pounds. That is an eleven pound drop from 2 weeks ago. It's still a 13 pound gain from a few months back. So back to square one. No more eating out. I'm throwing my fat girl clothes out so I have nowhere to go since backwards/bigger will not be an option. Low carb and high veggie intake, easy on the sugar, and get back on the walking trail.

Do what I know. Diet and supplements.

Do what works. Low impact video workouts since my body can't take the stress of high impact anything, walking, weights, and pilates.

Do what it takes. Commitment and focus.

Dust my ass off since I fell on it then stayed there for a while.

Report back here with my progress so ya'll can hold me accountable and I can try to help you too. Deal?




Saturday, March 1, 2014

Stuff n things

I applied to be a Train Dirty Fitness ambassador. Haven't heard back from it but that's okay.  Working on a low stress low impact workout since my body is still not on remission from whatever is causing this flare of killer psoriaisis and the number of sundried afflictions that decided to tag along for the ride.  My muscles more than joints are killing me but are steadily getting better as I reduce the gluten in my diet. I am turning slowly toward a more vegetable based diet, not necessarily total vegetarian because  my body seems to require meat based proteins apparently to keep up with red blood cell production which is odd considering leafy greens are supposed todothe same thing. Go figure.

I am in love with bok choy to say the least. I use it in home made chicken noodle soup and learned to sautee it in butter or grapeseed oil and sea salt. Yummy, even if I do say so myself

Same for kale. I wish I had tried it sooner. That's my advice to everyone, branch out a little, give yourself permission to try something new. You might find a new favorite. Or not. But try it anyway.


Monday, February 3, 2014

Cough cough..ack!

Whew.... look at all the dust and cob webs on this blog. eww...

F'AB'ruary  challenge  is well under way on my Facebook page.  Click on over there and have a crack at the most sore abs and fun you'll ever have.  Wohoo! Rock that body ladies and guys! Food suggestions soon!

Monday, May 27, 2013

Oh YES! IT WORKS! The Body Wrap Company that is.

Results from the body wrap from IT Works 

Before: 1 inch above belly button 39 After 37
At belly button before 42 After 38
1 inch below belly button 49 After 45 

A total of TEN inches off just by using that one body wrap. I was shocked. I want to wrap my whole body in it for a week! That was on Monday. Four days later the measurements haven't changed all that much. My weight did not change but then it wasn't supposed to. My poor stretch marked skin where the wrap was placed is much smoother looking, the dark brown patches/scars on my stomach, from being burned by a piping hot bowl of chicken and dumplings being dropped in my lap, faded too and the stretch marks are much less visible. Yep. I'm sold on it! Dang, I'm even considering selling it myself.

That said, body wrap results are not permanent. They are not cure alls. They are not substitutes for real diet and exercise. Diet and exercise are where the permanent changes come in. It's up to you.