Sunday, March 13, 2011

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Readers, this is your fair warning.  A down in the dumps alert...Sometimes I just need to talk myself through the rough spots. I get afraid, sometimes, of what my life will be like when I get to my 'goal'.  I think part of that is from people saying they think I look great now.  Really?  I'm hovering at the 200 pound mark and I look great?  When I look in my mirror I see a fat woman who knows how to dress to hide weight.  What will I look like at 140?  Will I look great? Or will I have tons of loose wrinkly skin hanging all over like an elephant?  Will I look old and worn out?  Will I gain it all back plus some?

Sometimes I think I won't get to my goal and that I'm just wasting my time especially when I step on the scale and discover I've not lost a pound or worse yet GAINED!  What is wrong with me that I can't lose the weight all of a sudden?  Maybe the problem is that I sometimes feel content.  I think that's what my  husband is banking on. That I feel content and stop trying so I don't make him look bad.  Am I right or just paranoid?  When did I let paranoia creep into this equation?

I am so frustrated with my weight right now that I can't see straight.

4 comments:

Stacia said...

Just found your blog! Don't get discouraged. I have come from over 260 lbs (Don't know exactly because the scale and I weren't friends. Could be closer to 300lbs based on my clothes size.) Now I'm under 200lbs (just barely but there!!). I'm also 5'7" and need to get down to 140. IF I CAN DO IT YOU CAN DO IT!!

Donna said...

I've been concerned about baggy skin also. When I lose the weight I want to lose, will it just flap and fold over itself?

I'm hoping skin can adjust to the body, and shrink to fit. Is that true?

Anonymous said...

This is just a stumble. Don't give up. Your concerns are valid but not a good enough reason to quit now. You have worked too hard and come too far and there are lots of us reading your blog that need your support and hope we can give some to you.

Anonymous said...

This is just a stumble. Don't give up. Your concerns are valid but not a good enough reason to quit now. You have worked too hard and come too far and there are lots of us reading your blog that need your support and hope we can give some to you.